The Diva Speaks…

Re-Shaping A Diva - 2009 (or… a long overdue update!)

Or maybe it’s more like a “do-over”? Regardless I’ve neglected this for far too long. If for nothing else now that I’m making concentrated effort to do what I wanted to do over a year ago and gaining some progress this is a good a place as any to keep it documented.

Hell, maybe it’ll even inspire others to join along? Stranger things have happened, I’m certain of that much!

So… in a nutshell when I last attempted to make some progress on toning up and losing weight and/or inches I let myself fall back into a routine in which there was a lot of status quo and no self-motivation. I did still participate in the fashion show fundraiser last year but had to turn up my charm and use it on myself to get over the frustration of feeling fat. Additionally the guy I was seeing at that time didn’t seem to mind my body type, nor did the guy I’ve dated more recently. Why do anything about yourself if someone professes to like you the way you are? Blah.

It happens. We’ve all done it. We’ve all been there. Besides, I’m the first person to admit I’m a master procrastinator… but that isn’t what this particular series is about.

Onward!

I didn’t like where I was and had been for far too long. “Quit Smoking” excuse aside it was time to get off my ass. …read more » » »

Re-Shaping A Diva - Week 7 to ?

I’ve lost track what week I’m supposed to be reporting on, I am SO behind with this.. good Lord. Not only am I behind with this, I’ve not made any progress. May is right around the corner, as is the local groups Fetish Fashion Show fundraiser. How much weight can I lose in two weeks? LOL. Sheesh.

In a nutshell I’ve gone back and forth between the 210 to 215 range. This week I’m …read more » » »

Re-Shaping A Diva - Week 6

I’d be lying if I said that I was happy with myself. In fact, I’m pretty bummed. When I jumped on the scale all excited on Sunday and read the number.. I did a double take. I’ve gained… again. I don’t know if it’s the disappointment in myself, the idea that maybe I’m just being a little too hard on myself, or the plain “up and down” weight gain and loss that is more unnerving.

I definitely need to get my motivation on track.. but I really don’t know …read more » » »

Re-Shaping A Diva - Weeks 4 & 5

I’ve been a little preoccupied of late getting some other areas of “vanilla” life in line so that I’ve not taken time out for myself to document my progress. Shame on me. Now that those things are working out as they were meant to be I can put some energy back into other aspects of life, all of which are coming together in such a way as I would never had imagined.

I have however, continued to weigh in each Sunday. So.. for Week 4 I weighed in at …read more » » »

Re-Shaping A Diva - Week 3

It’s an odd thing to be accountable, and it may be even more odd to be responsible to your accountability. I can’t remember being any other way, it’s just a character flaw. Heh! Every Sunday I weight in.. and every Sunday just as I step on the scale I close my eyes and find myself issuing a small prayer. I’m not sure why I’m praying to the weight-loss god since it’s all within my control to reach my goal - but I silently pray nonetheless.

This week, from where I began I’ve now lost 3 pounds! It’s not huge, but it’s progress.. and I’ll take it!

Last weeks weight: 219 pounds
This weeks weight: 217 pounds
Overall weight-loss= 3 pounds

This week I’ve also vowed …read more » » »

Re-Shaping A Diva - Week 2

I weighed in yesterday but didn’t have the chance to get here and document it. It’s a start, and I’m rather pleased that I managed to get anything off at all during the tail end of the ’season of food.’

Last weeks weight: 220 pounds
This weeks weight: 219 pounds

I’m also back on the every-0ther-day minimum 20-minutes of exercise. This combined with the increased intake of water consumed will drop a few more pounds - I hope!

Re-Shaping A Diva - Week 1

Progress this week wasn’t what I’d hoped for… then again I didn’t do as much as I thought I might either. I blame the holidays. While I’ve not lost any additional weight this week and instead gained a few back - I am happy that I’ve not exceeded my original weigh-in weight because of the reduced exercise this week, combined with the excess of food!

I have to stay motivated… if I don’t - I’m sunk. To help with this I’ve …read more » » »

Re-Shaping A Diva - The Initial Shock

And so it begins. While I did purchase the scale last weekend I did not do the body part measurements that I want to go along with this adventure… all of which will be used to track my progress. I was very much shocked at what the scale had to tell me last Sunday. Very shocked. Since I quit smoking a little over a year ago I’ve managed to add five pounds a month to my standard “already a little over-weight” size. It makes me sick to think about carrying this much weight.

I suppose the “pro” to my current size is that I’ve managed to evenly distribute the weight so that it’s not all in my gut, or ass, or thighs. That much is good, right? I’m thick all over. Yuck.

I’m pretty much a …read more » » »

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Re-Shaping A Diva - The Beginning

Hi! Welcome to the first installment of the ongoing series “Fetish, Forties, and Fabulous.” I’m a 40+ year old woman who “scene-identifies” (for the most part) as a wicked bottom with submissive tendencies “in scene” and dominant tendencies for most things outside of the scene. More on that later.

I recently decided that an overhaul is in order. Nothing drastic like plastic surgery and a brand new life, but something more along the lines of a thorough tune-up for what I’ve got going for me now. For the most part this came about because I’m so far out of my desired body-type and unhappy with some other aspects of life that I have to do something for me, about me, to improve me. As far as I’m concerned, there is always room for improvement in any one of us… and why wouldn’t anyone want to be a better?!

One of the first things I need to do is …read more » » »